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Saturday, July 21, 2007 ( 2:08 PM ) lisa ... who's here? it's really dusty in here. Been 2 years already... 
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Thursday, April 14, 2005 ( 9:25 PM ) lisa This site is pretty much lifeless... pretty much like me. Don't know what I've been up to. Nothing. I should be studying. Try and live up to the elusive standards of Chemical Engineering qualifications. What the hell. There've been influencial forces telling me to switch course. oh please, dont... i'm never sure of things. i just stay put and see how things go. my mum called and ask if i was going home. i said no i want to study in school. But i know very well i'm not studying as hard as i appear to. damn messed up. my parents silently have expectations and their ageing tell me their dependence on my future. I'd deem myself a disappointment as far as my uni education has comeforth. but oh well. what can i say. +++++++ someone was knocking on my door while i wrote this entry, so i went to open it. it was a couple from VCF... came to ask if i have any requests for them to pray for me. "Good results?" "Concentration" And they went ahead with a prayer. Thanks guys. man, i need the love of God.
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Thursday, March 17, 2005 ( 9:44 AM ) lisa haven't been here for sometime... last weekend i went for yuda's bday party... his sis is like, 10 years old already, and i last saw her when she was 5... whoa man... when kids are 'growing up very quickly', you are ageing very quickly as well. i dont wanna be 20
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005 ( 1:01 AM ) lisa "it's as though i keep crying for attention, love and touch. like a baby."
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Monday, January 31, 2005 ( 7:52 PM ) lisa She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough.I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in,And I don't know if I've ever been really loved,By a hand that's touched me,And I feel like something's gonna give,And I'm a little bit angry.Well, this ain't over, no, not here,Not while I still need you around.You don't owe me, we might change,Yeah, we just might feel good.(chorus)I wanna push you around,Well, I will,Well, I will,I wanna push you down,Well, I will,Well, I will,I wanna take you for granted,I wanna take you for granted,Yeah, yeah, well, I will.She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me,Like I'm a little untrusting,When I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya,And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me.You couldn't stand to be near me,When my face don't seem to want to shine,'Cause it's a little bit dirty.Well, don't just stand there, say nice things to me,'Cause I've been cheated, I've been wronged,And you, you don't know me,Yeah, well, I can't change.I won't do anything at all.(chorus)Oh, but don't bowl me over.Just wait a minute, well, it kinda fell apart,Things get so crazy, crazy.Don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby, baby. +++ i'd been bothered by this line in the song when i first heard it. Being taken for granted and taking others for granted. These are things you don't wanna experience in any relationship. But there's more than it seems i suppose, because only people close enough in a relationship get to take each other for granted (otherwise, you're an asshole). Still, how can we resist from feeling how we feel - upset, cheated. If only we were this rational. we'd be walking machines. +++ i need the chinese new year. i wanna visit my relatives. Every cny visiting is meaningful for me coz they help me reflect on my life ("So What are You Studying Now?" "You look fatter/slimmer har?") and how years seem to pass just like that (the ageing relatives, and me too yea). i love chinese new year. every year is different, in its own way.
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Friday, January 28, 2005 ( 8:40 AM ) lisa "If people define situations as real, they are real in their consequences."
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Sunday, January 16, 2005 ( 1:16 AM ) lisa Jesus, ?
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( 1:12 AM ) lisa Isn't It So. I've lots to write. And the world to fight. Fight back tears, fears and hurts the world can cause. I don't pray anymore. But I still sing songs. Just because. What's going on? ++++++++++++
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