celebrate life.

celebrate life.

( 8:15 PM ) lisa
I only got myself to blame. (This entry isnt like any of u bitches out there who're especially so negative before and during and after exams, this is about me. all this time. Ridiculous me. haha.)

im way way down. messed up, screwed. I've fallen back down to the behaviour and maturity when i first enter junior college. hah. unsettled, cant be bothered, stewpig, unmotivated. i think it must be hall life, i think it must be my boyfriend, i think its the university. everything is pushing me up the wall, causing me to be like this. Right. Wrong, i only got myself to blame. I'm 19 for God's sake, still behaving like a childish 16 year old.
And i think everything might be better if i had stayed at home (and get all sick and nauseous travelling to and fro sch), if i were a freaking single(and continue to dream abt the boyfriend i haf now, and think everything might be better if i had a partner), and if only we had nagging tutors in uni the way we had in JCs.

i'm ashamed of myself. Struggling since dont know when, but never really got out of it. Im ashamed that i almost fell asleep during my exam earlier this afternoon. Blame it on my flu and grogginess. Well, that was what happened in JC1 finals. i slept mah way through a paper, and got 9/100.. Dejavu. History repeats itself, and im history.im dead.

and i only got myself to blame.

( 7:53 PM ) lisa
"the exams are nearing!"
said that 2 months ago, said that 2 weeks ago, and now its just 2 days before the exams.
im crushed. i dont care anymore. im unfeeling towards the exams. i now cry in self-pity.

( 5:28 PM ) lisa
20 Questions to a Better Relationship
http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp
eXpressive: 7/10Practical: 7/10Physical: 3/10Giver: 7/10

You are a XPIG--Expressive Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Catch.You are a magazine-cover, matinee idol dreamboat. Parents love you and want to set you up with their kids. However, first dates are tough because it takes time for your qualities to come out. You are generous and kind. You think first and act later. You are cool in a conflict, but your practical side means if your partner throws out emotional appeals ("why can't we do what I want for a change?") they will grate on your nerves, even when the conflict is resolved. You're a romantic. You enjoy the thrill of the hunt, and you don't just fall into bed with anyone. You pay close attention to your significant other's needs, and this makes you an excellent lover and partner. The problem is that your friends and lovers may find it so easy to express things to *you* that they lose sight of whether you feel as comfortable with *them*! This doesn't necessarily make you feel under-appreciated -- you're too well-adjusted and self-aware for that -- but you may feel restless. Thus you seek adventure in your life outside the relationship to prove and actualize yourself. Of all the types, you would make the best parent.
You are coiffed.
Didja see "Big Fish"? 'Cause you're like Ewan MacGregor in "Big Fish."Of the 152107 people who have taken this quiz, 9.3 % are this type.

( 4:31 PM ) lisa
dangerously in love i am.

when love takes you in - Steven Curtis Chapman

I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream

Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in

And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in

Ponder the achievement of God He doesnt condone our sin, nor does he compromise his standard. He doesnt ignore our rebellioin, nor does he relax on his demands. Rather than dismiss our sin, he assumes our sin and, incredibly, sentences himself. God's holiness is honored. Our sin is punished... and we are redeemed. God does what we cannot do so we can be what we dare not dream: Perfect before God. - Max Lucado- (adapted fr the book IN THE GRIP OF GRACE)

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