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Wednesday, April 30, 2003 ( 9:45 PM ) lisa i haf a pride i cant contain... i bad-mouthed several ppl who get on mah nerves...... too quickly. i guess pc wld know very well all of those i rudely spoke of them behind their backs. i must learn to humble myself. amen. after sch i went to collect the lucky draw prize i won... its 2 bottles of saline soln and a teddy bear hp holder.... quite nice lar..... anyway, i went into da building and then the security guard kinda knew where i was going.. he said he saw someone fr mah sch too. okies? no, i didnt get to see who was the other ajcian. took lift up to 6th floor.. blah.. it was just a neat and nicely furnished office... as i waited for the lady to take the stuff..... i wondered how issit to work in an office.. issit like sch? it seems like ur cooped up in a cubicle and u hafta come up with proposals and be productive.... im not sure if i can handle tat..... and its like quite boring to me leah. on the other hand, being something like a dentist/ doctor etc... its really refreshin to be able to meet new challenges everyday... its not routine get wat i mean...... hmm hmm....... we shall see ey.. Jerry Mcguire is on channel 5 again!! this sunday!! think im gonna catch it..... mah 3rd or 4th time.... haha...... cools.. so exciting... this movie is strongly encouraged~ 
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Monday, April 28, 2003 ( 10:33 AM ) lisa in da sch library now. i read the papers just now... and there was this article on Sakae sushi only losin 10% of its business coz of SARs.. man... im craving for some sushi now...... yummy!! i dont care if its sakae or edo...... i just want it!!.... and i love anything octopus/squid etc...... i rem once yuda and i bought sushi-s take-away and went to a playgrd to eat... hehe.. we bought quite a lot leah. and i wasnt Tat hungry... so i ate most of da toppings only and then left the rice for yuda to eat... hahaa..... quite bad ar? i know i behave like a childish spoilt kid when im w him... :P argh. i miss him. okies. maybe ill eat da non-octopus/squid/salmon, cheapskate cucumber or tuna stuffing sushi fr da canteen later. later~
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Sunday, April 27, 2003 ( 6:55 PM ) lisa Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. |Hebrews 12:2| ... tats wat i learnt today. for the past few days... circumstances just threw me off guard, and i felt crap. i lost focus for a while... but the bible says tat Jesus is the Perfecter of our faith.. so tat's y i can and should always look to Him.. when i feel faithless, i should call out to Him..... Jesus..... u know wat.... i kinda realise how Jesus feels when ppl dont believe tat He is God.... It's like, He's just wanting to pour out His love and grace for us. and we're given a choice whether to believe. for those who accepts and receives him would have the gift of life. but those who reject, are those who slam the door at His offer of love... well, today i understand how it feels to haf someone rejecting you, when all u wanna do is to give ya love. well, tmr's mah bro's bday and i bought a lil piece of cake and a card for him. he was ignorant when i walked into his room. i said 'this is something for u'.. he didnt ans. i stood still. then he said ' just leave it' probably just to chase me out. i did, and left. after a while, i saw him leave his room.. walked to the kitchen. i was wonderin if he was gettin a fork to eat.... later, i checked the fridge, the cake was in there.. and the card, he left it in the kitchen... im hurt. i threw away the card. sometimes its just so painful to love. yet Jesus loves......
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Saturday, April 26, 2003 ( 12:25 PM ) lisa For the longest time - Billy Joel woohoohoohoo for the longest time woohoohoo for the longest time if you said goodbye to me tonight there would still be music left to write what else could I do I'm so inspired by you that hasn't happened for the longest time Once I thought my innocence was gone now I know that happiness goes on that's where you found me when you put your arms around me I haven't been there for the longest time woohoohoohoo for the longest time woohoohoo for the longest time I'm that voice you're hearing in the hall and the greatest miracle of all is how I need you and how you needed me too that hasn't happened for the longest time maybe this won't last very long but you feel so right and I could be wrong maybe I've been hoping too hard I've gone this far and it's more than I hoped for Who knows how much further we'll go on maybe I'll be sorry when you're gone I'll take my chances I forgot how nice romance is I haven't been there for the longest time I had second thoughts at the start I said to myself hold on to your heart now I know the woman that you are you're wonderful so far and it's more than I hoped for I don't care what concequence it brings I have been a fool for lesser things I want you so bad I think you ought to know that I intend to hold you for the longest time woohoohoohoo for the longest time woohoohoo for the longest time this song's been stuck in mah head... its so 70s w all tat whooa whooa-ing... heh, today i realised tat im a math idiot... ooh well.... dont think im gonna do any studyin.... im feeling kinda tired recently..... dont know y...... hmm hmm...... lemme just read the books i borrowed fr da library just now.. (feeling monotonous)
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Friday, April 25, 2003 ( 5:36 PM ) lisa today's quite a hot day and i know i kept complaining..... but it really got me irritated. anyway. checked the letterbox like i do everyday, and there were some letters for mah parents.. and this leaflet abt SARS, and this other brochure.. looked like KFC one. so i just took a closer look, see if got any good deals.. then i was like, har? not KFC at all.. its a mail from jesse. from USA. wah laoz.? dearest jesse.... haha.. dont u haf envelopes? it's like, 2 postcards pasted together w scotchtape ard...and the postcards feature Roti Prata..... haha ( i know u miss rotiprata.. jalan kayu one esp?) so farnie lo.... it came to me in quite a bad condition, coz the scotchtape was cut open.. WHO read?! heh. and then there was a sticker on da postcard. ---"POSTAGE DUE" oh jesse......... hahaa...... but im so happy! ;)
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Thursday, April 24, 2003 ( 2:51 PM ) lisa gimme sunday.
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Wednesday, April 23, 2003 ( 2:58 PM ) lisa kinda sleepy, donno wat to blog... i love Jesus, love mah daddy, love mah mummy, love mah bro, love jesse, love mah class gals, love the teachers. ok,i love you all. i love u.... mah beautiful Queen-sized, firm, warm bed. soft pillows, a bolster, and a warmy warmy blanket......... here i come!
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Saturday, April 19, 2003 ( 2:42 PM ) lisa Good Friday. the day my King laid down His life, just for me. went to church to watch a musical... The King and I... its similar from last yr's but it just touched me so much... jesus went thru all the pain and humiliation, just so as to restore our relationship w God.... and for the gift of life. everytime there's a portrayal of the cruxifixion of Jesus, my heart aches. the nails tat pierced thru His guiltless hands, the crown of thorns above His brows, the blood He shed for the forgiveness of our sins. He did all tat for each and everyone of us, because He loves us even before we ever knew Him. because He sees us as beautiful and precious. Now tat's one big BIG reason to rejoice everyday isnt it? i'm thankful all my life. i'm so glad i know Him as my LORD and friend. my saviour, my Hope. :) it brings me back to the ever-famous verse of John 3:16: "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." ey. wait a min! the story doesnt end there! Jesus defeated death! alright!! He's a real and living God.... yeah man. and today, phy test today... i went to sch quite early, like to open da sch gate.. heh. phy test.. oh its only a test.... hehe..... then after tat went town to buy err.... stuff... haha... *wink to melissaa,stella,pc..... haha...... tmr's EASTER!!!!! hurray!~
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Wednesday, April 16, 2003 ( 4:57 PM ) lisa a bag of sweets, in mah tummy. yummy. cant wait for friday... its GooDie friday! and then.... Easter sunday!!! cant wait cant wait!!........ heehee....
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Monday, April 14, 2003 ( 7:58 PM ) lisa Jesus Christ heals you. |Acts 9:34| i was down w flu yesterday. bah, felt like chopping off mah nose. i would say tat the flu i get is atypical... mah nose has a betta stamina than mah legs. 7-10 sneezes at a go! cool ey? hahaa.. well not when i was outside.. in church, then later in da bus, and in Burger king.. couldnt talk properly ya know.. felt embarassed when i keep sneezing, like im seriously ill. when i went home, everything became worse. couldnt do anything much. just lay on mah bed. sleep and wake sleep and wake, then at night when i seriously went to sleep, i sing praises and said mah prayers. i had faith in mah heart that i'll be fine when i wake up in da mornin. yeah, Praise God! this morning, i felt so much much betta. only had 1 attack of 7sneezes. cOol. tat was all!! i knew it was over. this mornin i told mr wee tat i wasnt feeling too well, and recoverin fr yesterday. then he asked me to take mah temp..... its like, hAr..ar..... it's flu leah. but oh well. mah temp was 36.4 anyway. so glad.. i was thinkin like, if i was running a fever and had to go home, everyone wld think "lisa's got sars! lisa's got sars!" and i might join them as well.. hehe.. arr.... sign off by giving a pinch to mah nose. :P
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Saturday, April 12, 2003 ( 6:55 PM ) lisa Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path. |Psalm 119:105|
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Friday, April 11, 2003 ( 5:44 PM ) lisa 
with regards to sch life.. oh well, gals all do tat! hehe.... and tat kinda make life interesting doesnt it? no malice though. i enjoyed sch today... and im just as delighted tat the weekend is here... yeah!! gonna catch up on mah sleep, and tmr im all ready to haf fun!
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Wednesday, April 09, 2003 ( 6:32 PM ) lisa SARS scare. when i was goin home, at the lift lobby, i heard some commotion in the lift... some shoutings...... so i tot, hmm.. scary, either quarrel until so jialat or scold a child till so jialat. the lift door opened. a middle-aged man X ran out with his mouth covered... "Sars!!" and he saw me and he pointed to a couple who was still inside. i just thot "SIAO... so old already and ur this immature!?" they then walked out... and the man told X (kinda scolding manner) "heng yi bo kia ar." ("luckily she's not frightened") wat does tat mean? har? as he said tat i pressed the lift button thoughtfully.... and i smiled wryly at him as the lift door closes...... wats happening. so much social uneasiness... and do we need such ppl? ppl who make a joke out of it all... certainly, i'd say..... but to a certain extent.. surely, we can laugh at smses tat kid abt SARS... hmm, even make fun of mah name w it.. its alright. coz we need this. but there must be a limit to this.. bcoz we may be offensive when humour makes a mockery outta it. just like tat immature man.
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Monday, April 07, 2003 ( 2:25 PM ) lisa im really thankful for this entire time of sch-closure.. and i believe many of us are. (?) though it might've been a lil boring sometimes, but im thankful to be able to haf such a time to ourselves. we've time to think abt so many things amidst all the turmoil in the world. and perhaps we ourselves would've learnt to treasure lives, and lives ard us. i've spent more time w mah family, and im learnin more each day to appreciate them. argh, esp mah brother la, im really happy tat we're friends now. also, met up w friends (who can go out)... its just great to know tat i've friends whom i dont meet often but u know tat they still love u... yeah, the friendship's still there. most most importantly, i got to build up mah faith once again... its something very personal and of utmost importance to me. Praise Jesus! thank Him for keeping us safe and protected thru these times.. Faith will destroy all fear. for He said, "Fear not: believe only" |luke 8:50| :) sch. Bring it on!
#Friday, April 04, 2003 ( 12:25 AM ) lisa today. went ta the old folks home. NO, not to earn cip pts! !! but sadly, to visit mah grandmother. ooh, its been almost 2 yrs i havent seen her..... she scared me.. the usual plump and slightly naggy Ah ma i knew was completely different. she was lying on the bed, her legs in an awkward position, bent sideways- probably left tat way from her sleeping position. she was emaciated. the sullen face stared into me.. i greeted her "ah ma". she just stared..couldnt talk. but i know she could regconise me. mah mummy brought out the food we brought, and asked me to feed her. i took the char siew bao, peeled off the paper on it, and put it at her mouth. she was almost savaging it. Her arms could move.. and she quickly pushed the bao into her mouth... next was a piece of popiah, the fillin was spiling all over, and we had to clean up. Was she tat hungry?! later mah mum told me tat she's been given only porridge everyday... i donno wat to think. im sad. but she's in this state coz of several cases of stroke... :( looking at her, i cant help but feel this tinge of sadness..... life. oh life. mah Ah ma, she used to gimme $20 ang bao during newyrs.. used to put those chinese medicated oil,feng you... used to sit on the sofa and watch tv.. occassional nags in Hokkein at mah aunt and uncles. even mah cousins... i miss her........... Ah ma.
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Wednesday, April 02, 2003 ( 12:16 PM ) lisa wat shld i do today? some chores. sleep. watch tv. listen to music. read bible. there're many things i'd like to do actually... Cook, do some artstuff..... but these are things tat i must be motivated... i'd surely put in mah best in doin such stuff only if its for someone. haha... yeah, i must think of the person im doing for while labouring. hahaa............... ..... i'd like to take lotsa pictures too... but i dont really wanna go out (cf to yest. post)... i might just do wat i listed above..... ook, come to think of it, i wanna make some things for some ppl!!!...... okks, yeah! i've got stuff to do today. DND! byes!! :) -in His love-
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Tuesday, April 01, 2003 ( 5:26 PM ) lisa SARS got onto me? i really dont feel like talkin abt this silly virus. it drives me crazy nowadays. as much as i wanna think it wont be even near me, the media keeps reportin every lil thing abt it.. and the media has this thing abt counting. just look at the papers: 23478923infected; 2039492304died; Day 0293489230 of the War. count count count.. i dont like it! all these counting seem harmless, but it subtly creeps into mah mind... and they become of meaning to me, or even more meaning than it shld haf. i get nervous when i get into da bus, become wary of those holdin a handkerchief and those who're ready to sneeze or cough. im even thinking if i shld hold on to the handles.. blah. and it doesnt stop there. when i go home, i'd take a shower immediately.. wash the clothes mah self... after tat, i feel tat the house should be cleaner. so i swept, and mopped..... ok its a lil too much. and i don feel like talkin abt it anymore. went to amk lib today.. it's quite a nice place leah~ i like! got stranded there for like 3 hrs coz of da rain. i wouldnt mind, except i was freezing.. so i read a bk... and when e rain stopped, i speed-read and got borrowed 2 bks and left..... brrrrrrrr.... reach home to haf a nice warm bowl of redbean soup hmm hmm......
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